Today marks the 10th year anniversary that I joined Tumblr. A decade.
I was a boy back then: 20 years old in college, still in my gay closet dreaming of love that never came and starting to develop consciousness about my anxiety and depression. Just a Boy With a Yellow Umbrella.
I learned a lot. Grew a lot. I am not in the place I thought I would be at 30 but I am in a place I never imagine I would be, or experience the things I did. It’s not better or worse: is just my place, my life, my story. Life is that of it: surprises.
Today also marks the day I leave Tumblr.
I am writing this to myself. Lord knows I never had a great following here and that I only used my blog as a friend, a journal to be me while I was figuring out myself and expressing myself.
I am still doing that and I will always will do it for the rest of my life. Just not anymore here on Tumblr.
It was a good ride. A lots of Beyoncé, Harry Potter, Disney and DC and the color yellow. And porn, we can’t forget the porn.
I came here as a boy. I leave as a man. A man still with flaws and all: with a broken-heart, broken by my first love a few months ago, taking 7 pills a day to control my anxiety, and recently employed after 10 years of battling and trying. A man but still a child at heart - always and forever - with love for nature and plants and cute animals. Who likes photography and art. With more thick skin, growing and learning. And a man with love in his life.
So if ever someone asked for me, tell them there was a boy who became a man.
Just a Man With a Yellow Umbrella.
